5 years later.
I graduated to the fashion school in New York. I got the best results. I was ready to become a fashion designer or to work in a fashion couture house or magazine.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
Episod 6: Back to school
The 2 weeks I got off finished very quickly. Just the right time for me to change the way I looked. I went to the hairdresser, cut my hair and totally changed the colours of my hair. I decided to have a beautiful red colour. Besides, I changed all my clothes. Mom had the great idea to bring me to one of her client Martha who was a personnal coach and a specialist in physical image,a big fan of Mum's shop. She spend a lot of time in explaning to me what I could wear and what I could not. She explained to me the importance of the colours and the patterns of my clothes. She gave me a list of the adresses of the shops in which I could find the clothes that suited me the most. Then I did a lot of shopping with mom. That was great. She spent a lot of money but she kept repeating me that I was her unique daughter and that she would spent everything on me. I bought trendy tuniques, dresses, trousers and shoes. All size 48. Martha taught to put some light wake up with some kohl on my eye and some mascara, that is, according to her the secret of the woman beauty.
The day I went back to school, I dressed up with a colourful tunique, some black tights and high shoes. I put some kohl and mascara, brush my hair quickly. I was ready to go back to school.
When I entered on the main corridor of the school, every one started looking at me from my feet to my head. Even some people said to me hello whereas they never talked to me. The boys who where looking at me, were looking with different eyes as if I was beautiful. For the first time in my life, I felt pretty and sensual. I went to get my books from my locker and then when I closed the door, he was there. John was next to me. This time I did not feel shy, I looked at his eyes, he became shy.
-Hi Sarah, you are back!
-Yes indeed.
-I just wanted to apologize for having been stupid with you.
-It's all forgotten now, I said in ironic way.
-I was wondering if we can one day maybe have a drink or something.
I looked at him.
-I don't think so. I accept your apologies but I want to do nothing with you. I even do not work with you and I do not want to see your face. You better go have a drink with Jenny. See you later.
I left him. He stayed at his place without moving. I was walking with a big smile on my face. I was happy. I felt better with myself. Ready to carry on my life.
The day I went back to school, I dressed up with a colourful tunique, some black tights and high shoes. I put some kohl and mascara, brush my hair quickly. I was ready to go back to school.
When I entered on the main corridor of the school, every one started looking at me from my feet to my head. Even some people said to me hello whereas they never talked to me. The boys who where looking at me, were looking with different eyes as if I was beautiful. For the first time in my life, I felt pretty and sensual. I went to get my books from my locker and then when I closed the door, he was there. John was next to me. This time I did not feel shy, I looked at his eyes, he became shy.
-Hi Sarah, you are back!
-Yes indeed.
-I just wanted to apologize for having been stupid with you.
-It's all forgotten now, I said in ironic way.
-I was wondering if we can one day maybe have a drink or something.
I looked at him.
-I don't think so. I accept your apologies but I want to do nothing with you. I even do not work with you and I do not want to see your face. You better go have a drink with Jenny. See you later.
I left him. He stayed at his place without moving. I was walking with a big smile on my face. I was happy. I felt better with myself. Ready to carry on my life.
Episod 5: Big Break
The slap I gave to Jamie cost me 2 weeks off from the school. Even if the headteacher knew I was an excellent student, he could'nt do anything after my violence period. Moreover, Jenny's parents visited him every single day to see how he will punish me. I finally got 2 weeks off but it was not obviously enough for Jenny's family. But it was enough for me to have a big break. During these 2 weeks, my father told me a long, very long speech about violence, that it does not help....blablabal...And when he saw I was listening to him very carefully, he ask him to promise to not do it again. I promised but I was not sure if I could keep this promise, but I promised.
When you have 2 weeks off in front of you, you do not know what to do. I started to do my planning. Of course I was punished but I had to use this extra time efficiently to build something. Instead of sleeping late on the mornings and the nights, I decided to wake up and sleep early. I was determinated of changing the way I looked. The bad words I heard on my back at school were still in my mind. They were following me everywhere.
One day I found in the cave 2 big suitcases full of old clothes. They belonged to Mum. I opened them and I found plenty of hippie spirit skirts, shirts and trousers. I took the suitcases in my room and started to try them on. The skirts suited me, the shirts too even if they stuck to my body but it was alright. However the trousers did not. When I look at the size of them, I discovered that the size was 46. My size at the time was 50. I was a bit sad to not wear them because I really loved them. At that point I decided to take care of myself and to totally change my image. I started by my weight. For the first time in my life I decided to loose few kilos. I did not want to become skinny as Carla Bruni or Laetitia Casta, but I wanted to have a nice and harmonious size with beautiful curves. My mom was my example and my inspiration. This is how I started to run every morning 10 minutes. That is not a long time but just what I needed to concialiate my body with some exercice. The best part in my body was my belly. I had a lot of fat around my size and and hips that prevented me to wear Mum's trousers. So my belly was my red target. Regarding my food, I did not follow the rubbish diets on the magazines. They promise you to loose 5 kilos in 2 weeks and then you loose them but once you stop following this diet, you gain 15 kilos and I did not want to play yoyo! I wanted to have a curvy body with nice curves. I reduced all the junk food like crips, sweets, chocolate bars and sodas. I prefered fruit, vegetables ans lemon with water. I discovered that I was fond of fruit mainly in juice. During all day, I was making apple juice, banana, strawberry juices. That was my own slim fast product, not the real rubbish one. I started feeling better with all this program. I did loose a lot of weight but I was in better mood and I felt more balanced in my mind. More important I could wear some of Mum's trousers.
When you have 2 weeks off in front of you, you do not know what to do. I started to do my planning. Of course I was punished but I had to use this extra time efficiently to build something. Instead of sleeping late on the mornings and the nights, I decided to wake up and sleep early. I was determinated of changing the way I looked. The bad words I heard on my back at school were still in my mind. They were following me everywhere.
One day I found in the cave 2 big suitcases full of old clothes. They belonged to Mum. I opened them and I found plenty of hippie spirit skirts, shirts and trousers. I took the suitcases in my room and started to try them on. The skirts suited me, the shirts too even if they stuck to my body but it was alright. However the trousers did not. When I look at the size of them, I discovered that the size was 46. My size at the time was 50. I was a bit sad to not wear them because I really loved them. At that point I decided to take care of myself and to totally change my image. I started by my weight. For the first time in my life I decided to loose few kilos. I did not want to become skinny as Carla Bruni or Laetitia Casta, but I wanted to have a nice and harmonious size with beautiful curves. My mom was my example and my inspiration. This is how I started to run every morning 10 minutes. That is not a long time but just what I needed to concialiate my body with some exercice. The best part in my body was my belly. I had a lot of fat around my size and and hips that prevented me to wear Mum's trousers. So my belly was my red target. Regarding my food, I did not follow the rubbish diets on the magazines. They promise you to loose 5 kilos in 2 weeks and then you loose them but once you stop following this diet, you gain 15 kilos and I did not want to play yoyo! I wanted to have a curvy body with nice curves. I reduced all the junk food like crips, sweets, chocolate bars and sodas. I prefered fruit, vegetables ans lemon with water. I discovered that I was fond of fruit mainly in juice. During all day, I was making apple juice, banana, strawberry juices. That was my own slim fast product, not the real rubbish one. I started feeling better with all this program. I did loose a lot of weight but I was in better mood and I felt more balanced in my mind. More important I could wear some of Mum's trousers.
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